An American Beauty (hint: use no mirrors)
When I feel beautiful, I feel beautiful
from the inside out. I am aware of my
hair, thick and blonde, framing my face.
I am aware of the zygomatic arch curving under my eyes, and I look out,
letting my soul fill my gaze, try to simply see myself as all soul, eyelash and
hair, w/ wit to spare!
But should I look in the mirror, I am almost always aghast at how different I look from how I feel (who has not, after
all, glanced in a store window only to be confronted by some alien reflection,
bloated cheeks and furrowed brow, hair flying everywhere, wind making your eyes run – so NOT how you
perceive yourself, walking down the street) – and the question remains, it
haunts: who am I, really? The person I feel issuing from behind my
eyes, or that older woman in the glass’ reflection, aging so much faster than
my mind?
- Dec 7, Oakland, CA, 2013
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